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Dead man’s clothes by Ivan Donn Carswell
Growing up, I propose, is like wearing a dead man’s clothes. Death has a way of levelling the ground. I have found the closer your relationship the closer the fit; the unsettling bit is the fear of not fitting the role, or where your forbear made a name or leashed a reputation, which by imputation of the clothes is yours as a crown, to wear or not to wear, to possess or disown; whereas I was first bequeathed a pair of shorts, a T shirt and some thongs, items which rightly belonged both to the man who was and the man to be, though I had worn his suit before I reached his height, and though I might pretend I was, I never was that man despite the formal suit. Today I use a woollen fishing jersey from a man I hold in huge regard but sadly now departed, a man whose friendship touched my heart and with the most humble respect I know I gladly wear his clothes. © I.D. Carswell
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