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Just wasn’t right by Ivan Donn Carswell
You lift the lid in awe, a seat and lid upon an inside stall where you can go, quite unlike the outside loo at home, but oh the smell, the hellish smell so rank and raw – you see some objects in there clearly, disbelieving things you really shouldn’t see; it is a step too far, a wide-eyed confrontation, a graphic realisation this is not the same, clearly not what you naively thought it ought to be. So now you’re caught a step beyond your safety zone, trapped alone and scared, poised to run away despaired because no-one will come unbid and make it safe, or give you confidence that yes, this is the proper place and show you how. And now you are prepared to cry, the tears are welling in your eyes but you can hear them crying sissy boy, sissy boy, you’re nothing but a sissy boy. You will not cry, you will not run, you’ll walk away and hurry home, it’s not that far. And when they notice you have gone and worry where, or later ask you why you disappeared from sight, you’ll say, I couldn’t go in there, that dunny can and awful smell just wasn’t right. © I.D. Carswell
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